Bad Start of 2011

I'm feeling worse than falling out of love right now. Having to know that i need to wait until the judgement day of Feb 25th could possibly killing me bit by bit. This is probably be the worse news i ever heard so far. It has been etching in my head for more than a week already but how come it seems that a short 6 weeks of waiting could be such a toll. Time is crawling pass so slowly. The fateful day still linger in my mind just like it has just happened yesterday. How can i shake it off my head for a peaceful night? Somehow i wished it's tomorrow but a part of me fear that it come too soon. I seriously don't dare to think what could have happen after 25th. Lets hope all the things can be positive.

Just as i'm coping with this desvastating news, i had another blow. It seems like there are endless waves of blow coming my way that i could hardly handle.

Maybe we were not meant to be. Maybe i've slipped away the chance to cherish. Probably a regrettable one. Since you have suggested to put down all the feeling then i shall agree with you. Thanks and sorry for everything.

Why do i have the feeling that i'm losing you bit by bit?

I just wanna see you.

Priority?

Perhaps the last.

So much on my mind but i couldn't form any word to decribe it.

Fortune Fortune Telling

Hmm, how is the feeling of knowing something good or bad after you'd someone reading your fate in life through ur plam? Isn't it amazing and shocking to know a person could decipher what has been in store for you as you walk along with your life, no?

As i'm looking at my plam, even though i know none about the plam reading, i see that the lines are so short. Probably a bad sign or something huh? lol..

Still, i'm quite curious about how my life's gonna be like but on the other hand scare that i couldn't accept the bad outcome that coould be known to me after that. Probably not now, i heard everytime you go for a fortune reading, your life will shorten by abit. Don't know how true is that but it's better to believe it than to be sorry.

I will have mine in the near future probably. =)

Phrase of Life Reflection

Finally i'm out with the NDP predicament. Also gone through my FATEP. Which is quite similiar to our usual outfield exercise. The feeling was about the same except that there were evaulators roaming around to catch and pin point to our mistakes. Nevertheless, it's all over!!

Apparently, today is my off day and i'm out slacking with choon hua at macdonal. It was the moment of slacking that we've realised how long we have not been having this kind of luxury to slack. When was the last time i slack in a weekday with a clear-headed mind? Probably during my poly days.

This has then made me realised how i've been taking for granted of the chances to slack back in my school days. Taking for granted of the chances of not studying hard enough; mug harder enough. Looking back, i would still prefer studying to working. Studying was purely carefree with a little stress here and there but that was trivial and insignificant. Taking for granted of how we spent money like water and oblivious of how hard the money was earned by our parents. Now, it was like a cycle. I could feel a twitch of pain in my heart just like how it echos with my parents nagging back when i was younger.

Felt like it was all a part and parcel of life realization when it hit the right age and mentality.

That's How The Brain Functioned

Yesterday, i took a cab back home, the taxi driver uncle started talking to me about the world cup. Although i didn't follow the world cup very closely, i still hear my friends saying it about some of it. So he was saying about the "paul the octopus" putting its bet on spain and on the contrary, the parrot placing its bet on holland. Then he said he was amused at how both creature can predict the game so well and accurate but why can't human predict it as well as they do?

He further add on saying because human always think too much; like how a simple thing could turned out to be complexly percived. I couldn't agree more with him. Don't you think so too?

Getting Drained Out Every Other Week

Hmm, as what the title stated, it has been depressing and also exhuasting of not having any quality rest time for myself. Even though i've mentioned more than enough on how unhappy i'm with the NDP rehearsal, it still never enough to keep racking this shit up in my blog.

Nevermind, i shouldn't do it further.

A few days back, i was thinking since it's world cup fever right now, i would jolly well place some soccer bettings in singaporepools. Therefore, i placed the bet on germany but unexpectedly they lost. Then i've come to my realization that i never won any betting from singaporepools since the day i knew how to play betting. Be it 4D and Toto. That's sad and ill-fated, isn't it? Haha, but i will not resign to what is labelled in me because there's always something, a hunch that keep me going and keep telling me not to give up. Eventually i will win big the next bet to come.

Lets be hopeful! =)

Still Mulling Over Weekend-less

Okay i've gotten the latest news for myself. I will not be having any weekend enjoyment until national day! Who can be more sadder than i do? Haha! Yes, i can only laugh it off to console myself. Just my luck to be in this full of shits. BAH!

Yesterday when i was having night's out with my bunkmate, and ramdomly we ended up talking about sex chromosome. Okay i gotta admit that i've no idea what's a chromosome until he explained to me. But that not the point anyway! And the other point is i know about it somehow already. Haha! And yes that not the main point again though. My bunkmate told me normal human being has 23 chromosome and not more, not less. If there is any differentiation, then that person will have some kind of illness, for instant, the down syndrome which has an extra 1 more chromosome.

He added that before the child is born, we can check for the chromosome already. Whether the child has any abnormality in his chromosome. From there, you can decide whether to keep or abort the child.

Then this left me mulling with a question. What if you found out that your child has an addtional chromosome in him. After the breaking news, will you consider keeping this child or just abort the child to end the child's future agony?

This would definitely struck me with dilemma. A hardest decision making. Whether to give the child the opportunity to see the light and to breathe the air or to just end his life to prevent dolory in his future.

Hmmm, just a thing to ponder.